pleasure masked danger. tasty tidbits floated before me, to and fro with the ebb of the sea. innocently, I ate and at once knew fulfillment. my first true friend. food filled me and comforted me during the chaos of childhood. Dad on drugs? Mom missing in a fog of depression, medicating with food? it’s ok. […]
Tag: poetry
life lived with color
denial is a bully, an instinctual artist born of fear and anger. eight-limbed, forty fingered, it uses its palette of extremes to blind us to our true selves. black and white, is or is not, truth or lies, light or dark, never room for the slow birth of dawn or the gradual goodbye of dusk. […]
Wings
Disguised, you perched Upon the curved husk of a fallen leaf, Faded to brown. You hid by closing your wings, and in my limitation, I saw you as a dead leaf upon a dead leaf. Frozen, you sat, brown to the world, Another shell of life gone, Another little death littered upon the earth. Suddenly, […]
My Vertebrae Story
I don’t know what it is. It rattles inside, bones stacked upon bones, curved and twisted. Its story peers sometimes from around the edges of fairy wings. Waves hello, then is lost among the miasma of raw emotions, the stagnant cesspool of anger – fear – sadness – – – – – the charm of […]
Act as if
Act as if I am secure in trust, faith, and hope. Act as if I accept my powerlessness over The depression that fades my mother to a ghost of herself, A shade welcoming the shadows, A mother disappearing into disease. Act as if I accept my powerlessness over The addiction that changes my husband From […]
What’s Like to Lose 80 Pounds – for the 5th Time
Scary. Life changing. Scary. I have another 80 to release to be at a healthy BMI. Just for today, I am willing to hand it over to Brigid, Divine Mother, Healer of all wounds, Creative Fount of all inspiration, Courageous Mother, Forge of Strength. I can feel my collarbone. It has become a worry bone. […]
Victory
Ego A, ego A, always, always ego A. End of day, start of day, always, always ego A. Control, control, me, me, me, always, always ego A. Ego A, go away, ego A, do as I say! Ego A, why did you not go away? Ego A, ego A, now? I pray! Mama B, Mama […]
Heavenly Father, Lost & Found
Heavenly Father, I love You. Again. For once, in another form, I hated You. You dominated me. You condemned me. You saved me from men then once again You condemned me through the voices of men. transcribed scribbles of fraud, a rock made holy by tall tales. a local legend, the lost tribe found. separation […]
Hearing My Story
I was told it would happen, I didn’t think it would happen until the night it did happen. I heard my story, my emotions. How did she find the map to my disconnected island, my meaningless, insignificant smudge of land – my heart? I didn’t think it would happen until the night it did happen. […]
Woman, Angry, Speaks
I hid in my cozy fat blanket for decades, scared of you. I slunk in the shadows, a secret woman, eyes downcast, heart shrouded. subjugation through exploding compliments, criticism hidden inside love. frightened by your gaze, rank with desire. shamed by you simply for being me – for being girl, shaped long and curvy by nature, […]
