pleasure masked danger. tasty tidbits floated before me, to and fro with the ebb of the sea. innocently, I ate and at once knew fulfillment. my first true friend. food filled me and comforted me during the chaos of childhood. Dad on drugs? Mom missing in a fog of depression, medicating with food? it’s ok. […]
Tag: poetry
life lived with color
denial is a bully, an instinctual artist born of fear and anger. eight-limbed, forty fingered, it uses its palette of extremes to blind us to our true selves. black and white, is or is not, truth or lies, light or dark, never room for the slow birth of dawn or the gradual goodbye of dusk. […]
Wings
Disguised, you perched Upon the curved husk of a fallen leaf, Faded to brown. You hid by closing your wings, and in my limitation, I saw you as a dead leaf upon a dead leaf. Frozen, you sat, brown to the world, Another shell of life gone, Another little death littered upon the earth. Suddenly, […]
My Vertebrae Story
I don’t know what it is. It rattles inside, bones stacked upon bones, curved and twisted. Its story peers sometimes from around the edges of fairy wings. Waves hello, then is lost among the miasma of raw emotions, the stagnant cesspool of anger – fear – sadness – – – – – the charm of […]
Act as if
Act as if I am secure in trust, faith, and hope. Act as if I accept my powerlessness over The depression that fades my mother to a ghost of herself, A shade welcoming the shadows, A mother disappearing into disease. Act as if I accept my powerlessness over The addiction that changes my husband From […]
What’s Like to Lose 80 Pounds – for the 5th Time
Scary. Life changing. Scary. I have another 80 to release to be at a healthy BMI. Just for today, I am willing to hand it over to Brigid, Divine Mother, Healer of all wounds, Creative Fount of all inspiration, Courageous Mother, Forge of Strength. I can feel my collarbone. It has become a worry bone. […]
Victory
Ego A, ego A, always, always ego A. End of day, start of day, always, always ego A. Control, control, me, me, me, always, always ego A. Ego A, go away, ego A, do as I say! Ego A, why did you not go away? Ego A, ego A, now? I pray! Mama B, Mama […]
