life lived with color

denial is a bully, an instinctual artist born of fear and anger. eight-limbed, forty fingered, it uses its palette of…

Wings

Disguised, you perched Upon the curved husk of a fallen leaf, Faded to brown. You hid by closing your wings,…

I don’t know what it is. It rattles inside, bones stacked upon bones, curved and twisted. Its story peers sometimes…

I read. I survived. I shook, but Brigid kept me upright. The coaching by my sponsor (an opera professor) and…

The silver chip I received at my first meeting 39 days ago hung over my galloping heart. My struggle with…

In the last few months, my willingness to put down my eating disorder behaviors has increased which allowed me to…

We lost rooms with people from places outside our homes, people of warmth and touch, palpable loving empathy, eyes of…

blank, an apocalypse of one, I am not I. instead, I am it – a consumer, a destroyer, a zombie…

I need help. I need to acknowledge I am in the process of relapse. I have been hiding. Avoiding. Escaping.…

I have done many, many fourth steps since joining OA in 2014. I answered the OA 4th guide workbook questions,…

Step three is the decision to turn over my will and life to the care of Higher Power. As I…

Once I accept that I am powerless over my compulsion to stop the mental obsession and trigger the physical cravings…

Hope and hopelessness are woven through the two Big Book chapters, “There is a Solution” & “More About Alcoholism”. We…

When I first joined OA, I was amazed to learn all the ways I identified with Bill W as a…

Christmas Eve I had a relapse. I was resting on spiritual laurels and not rigorously honest through 10th steps. Thus,…