I went home recently. It was the first time I have ever visited my hometown abstinent and sober. It was scary. Tropical storm Cindy was making Her presence known. Gusts of torrential water blurred my windshield as I sought the hill. The hill where I was date raped at age 16. To this day, it […]
Rigorous Honesty
I have been doing a Big Book step study with a sponsee in which we work the steps in tandem. As I contemplated the last question of the Step Three inventory, I was given an answer for my food and body obsession which has lately grown stronger. First, the context then the question. I have […]
Day 364
Today is day 364 of consistent, continuous abstinence. Day 1. Day 3. Day 46. Day 59. They were all were one day at a time. Day 364 is one day at a time. 3-6-4 Eve of 1. Eve of 1 year of continuous abstinence. 1 year, 365 days, made possible by living one day at […]
Mardi Gras and Abstinence
Fat Tuesday, 2017 I moved to New Orleans with my family in 2014. I never suspected moving to a city known for decadence would open me to recovery. Yet here I am enjoying recovery, one day at a time. Yet here I am lighter than I have been in 15 years. I am smaller than […]
Healthy Coping Skills: A Reminder
One the first blogs I wrote was about surrender — twice . Surrender is integral to working the 12 steps of any anonymous program. Surrendering my ‘control’ over food is my surrender today and every day I live in recovery. Yesterday was not a day of recovery for me. It was not a day of […]
6 Months Abstinence & the Power of Service
I had my 6 month anniversary on November 4th. It is quite surreal to me that I have been consistently binge free since May 4th. It is also quite surreal to me that time since my 3 month anniversary has not been marked by intense cravings. If anything, the cravings have lessened, and my program […]
Wings
Disguised, you perched Upon the curved husk of a fallen leaf, Faded to brown. You hid by closing your wings, and in my limitation, I saw you as a dead leaf upon a dead leaf. Frozen, you sat, brown to the world, Another shell of life gone, Another little death littered upon the earth. Suddenly, […]
