I had my 6 month anniversary on November 4th. It is quite surreal to me that I have been consistently binge free since May 4th. It is also quite surreal to me that time since my 3 month anniversary has not been marked by intense cravings. If anything, the cravings have lessened, and my program […]
Wings
Disguised, you perched Upon the curved husk of a fallen leaf, Faded to brown. You hid by closing your wings, and in my limitation, I saw you as a dead leaf upon a dead leaf. Frozen, you sat, brown to the world, Another shell of life gone, Another little death littered upon the earth. Suddenly, […]
100 Pounds Released
The scale this morning at the doctor’s office confirmed my suspicion that I have released 100 pounds since beginning OA in September 2014. To have released so much with so little stress and anxiety is simply a miracle. For the first time in my life, I am getting healthier one day at a time and […]
How Higher Power Works Through Me
When I took the sixth and seventh steps in 2015, I experienced a profound shift in my thinking. The deep action of examining my defects and their corresponding assets revealed to me the truth of myself as Higher Power would have me be. I am now able to recognize my positive behaviors and give myself […]
90 Days
For the first time since entering the OA rooms nearly 2 years ago, I have 90 days of abstinence. I feel so blessed and grateful for the abstinence. Likewise, I am grateful for the foundation of the steps, the support of the fellowship, and the continual presence of HP which all made this possible. One […]
Lighthouse
she told what happened to her – behind the dumpster, he treated her like trash, her spirit destroyed as well as her dignity which she picked up, bit by broken bit, realigned and made stronger until she became our LIGHTHOUSE. all us girls in our boats of silence, adrift on the sea of our broken […]
Cliff of Sabotage
Yes, dramatic. There I am, peering over into the abyss of sabotage, self-hate and compulsive eating. Tomorrow makes 30 days (2 slips) of abstinence. I feel like I am about to come apart, my skin flying off into the atmosphere while my feelings remain earthbound, riveted by pain instead of gravity. I want to disappear […]
