Will I vanish with recovery? Will I disappear, a hollow woman devoid of defect? Will I disintegrate , a ghost…
Suffering in Recovery
Ok, so I have body issues. I binged in part to be protected by a layer of fat. It is…
Filling up Day Four
Tonight, an expanse of time awaits me. 2 hours or even all the hours of the night if I insanely…
My Definition of Abstinence & Plan of Action
So I here I am in day 2 of abstinence. My periods of abstinence have been chaotic ever since I…
23.2 hours since last Binge
Almost 1 day. Almost there. I pray for willingness to forgive my parents. I pray for willingness to forgive myself.…
Addiction Sucks but Emotion Wheels & 12 Steps are Grand
Yes, addiction does suck. To insanely & intensely desire a substance that destroys my life is one giant ball of…
Defect Unfocus
I find it difficult to let go of character defects most of the time. I trust with practice and prayer…
I Will Always Be an Addict
As a child of addiction, I learned early to hide from my feelings by using food as sedation. My father’s…
Brigid’s Voice
Remember Me, Light inside, Orb of love. Child, cleave unto Me, Immerse thyself In Light, Illuminate thine Orb. Stars upon…
Poetic OA Newcomer Story
The silver chip I received at my first meeting 39 days ago hung over my galloping heart. My struggle with…
