Lighthouse

she told what happened to her – behind the dumpster, he treated her like trash, her spirit destroyed as well as her dignity which she picked up, bit by broken bit, realigned and made stronger until she became our LIGHTHOUSE. all us girls in our boats of silence, adrift on the sea of our broken […]

Cliff of Sabotage

Yes, dramatic. There I am, peering over into the abyss of sabotage, self-hate and compulsive eating. Tomorrow makes 30 days (2 slips) of abstinence. I feel like I am about to come apart, my skin flying off into the atmosphere while my feelings remain earthbound, riveted by pain instead of gravity. I want to disappear […]

Drop the Rock, Step 6 Response: Part 1

Drop the Rock is a beautiful and dense book full of profound insights and directions regarding steps 6 & 7. As I have read, reread and reread the Step 6 section, I have begun to slowly understand the need for and the actions to work step 6. When we honestly work steps 6 & 7, […]

Leaning Forward into the Future

As the blessing of abstinence continues for me, I find myself needing Spirit to remind me that I am abstinent to be in more fit spiritual condition, so I may be more useful to others. The physical changes are simply a natural byproduct of abstinence for compulsive eating and compulsive food behaviors. I find my […]

Yoga Humility

Spirit continues to amaze me with abstinence dependent upon my fit spiritual condition for the day. I am responsible for the footwork and attitude needed for abstinence to exist on a daily basis. Abstinence imparts clarity and perspective impossible when food drunk. Clarity in turn bestows gifts or self-awareness and gradual self-acceptance as I surrender […]

Patience & Self Acceptance

Today, I am focusing on the principles of Patience & Self Acceptance. I ask for both of them in my life, so I may be more useful to those around me. Without them, my ability to be abstinent decreases because my connection with HP decreases. I seek to keep in constant conscious contact with HP […]