Step three is the decision to turn over my will and life to the care of Higher Power. As I mentioned in yesterday’s blog, the idea of Higher Power being True North and the other 359 degrees of the compass being my self will speaks to me on many levels. The Big Book discusses step […]
Tag: Open Mind
The Power Problem: We Agnostics and The Spiritual Experience
Once I accept that I am powerless over my compulsion to stop the mental obsession and trigger the physical cravings that start active addiction, I must decide if I want to continue in the cycle of white knuckle “control” and relapse OR seek a power outside myself to solve the whole mess for me. As […]
Bill’s Story: A Compulsive Eater’s Identification
When I first joined OA, I was amazed to learn all the ways I identified with Bill W as a Compulsive Eater and alcoholic. My life was very different than his, but the overall arc was the same. I feel different. I didn’t belong. So I turned to food. Later, like Bill, I discovered alcohol […]
Mama Brigid, Please Save Me From Relapse
umbra, moon shadow, you burn, you numb, you entice me to Sacrifice MY life upon your altar of fear and anger, resentment and impatience, selfishness and unworthiness. I feed you in a frenzy, open mouthed and ravenous in the dark, in the dim white electric void of the tomb of food, casket of chaos and […]
Filling up Day Four
Tonight, an expanse of time awaits me. 2 hours or even all the hours of the night if I insanely ignore HP & decide to drink. My son is asleep, so my addictions come out to play. I named my addiction Umbra. I shall share the poem with you in a separate post. Tonight, I […]
